Hello-
I think I have a case of or at least have some form of ocd.
I always have TONS of anxiety and thoughts I find unacceptable.
I think someone is always watching me. I have realistic thoughts someone or something is chasing me when I am by myself. I HATE odd numbers, I think they signify bad luck or that something bad will happen. I have to run past windows, because I think there is someone watching me or there are (and I know this sounds weird) but I think there is a sniper on a nearby building waiting for me. I don't need things to be spotless, but I like a room after I clean it up. I can usually resist the urge to make something even or straightened out. I have an obsession with numbers. I have a 32 page long list of numbers I HAVE to write down. I took a few ocd tests on the internet and it said 12+ means you most likely have ocd. I got 28 and 26 both times. I don't think that would prove it though. I am only a teenager, so I cannot go to a therapist.

Aside from all of that, my parents think I am faking, they say I need attention, so I fake a mental condition. (Don't get me wrong, though they are GREAT parents.) I love them both.
I have known that there has been "something wrong with me" Ever since I was about 8 years old.
I did not know why I had to add addresses on houses in some weird way to make them even. But, I finally found out what ocd was almost 2 years ago. I saw on a tv show and that is why my parents think I am faking it. "Just because you need attention, you act like a character on tv."
I have thought about going to my school Councillor, but my mom works at the school I go to. And she would be the first one to know why I was there. And It makes me feel almost sick for days when she tells me I fake ocd. I think I am a horrible person and it is all in my head. Then I say to myself, you are not faking it, you know something is wrong with you.

During health, I learned about ocd. my friend showed the teacher my list of numbers, and she called my mom. To punish myself, I went to the sink and burnt my hands.

My friends always tease me about having ocd, and i don't always mind it. I'll laugh with them, (most of the time.) Because I know that that is how they joke around with me. I attend church regularly, and I thought by reading the scriptures, these thoughts would go away. As I read them, I thought about all the mistakes I have made. I thought god hated me, and I thought I was going to hell for sure when I died. I always think about blasphemy, and have thoughts in my head about cursing the lord.

Also my grandma has SEVERE ocd, and I think my dad may have a bit of ocd, too.
Is it possible I could have been born with these habits? Or did I acquire them?

Sorry for this being so long I guess what I need to know is, Do you think I have ocd, and what do you think I should do?
Thank you.

i'll be blunt. you have OCD. im not a know-it-all but i have an OCD grandma so i know what im talking about. there are therapist specifically made for people with OCD. your's is pretty serious.burning your hands in the sink? not exactly necessary. if you have the urge to hurt yourself again, do it emotionally for now. call yourself stupid for saying something or when you do something wrong. physical pain will get you nowhere.oh and just so you know im a teenager too. i physically hurt myself too when i do stupid things or when i get embarrassed.
if you have anyother questions just ask.

Thank you for all the help! I was wondering, though, how can I get help with this? I really would like to beat this OCD, but I don't know where to begin. I HATE having to constantly check things, and stay up all night worrying about something impossible. Thank you very much!
-DBB

just breathe. Go see a therapist and try to refrain from doing the compulsive things. One time when you feel like you need to check somethng, try not checking it

listen no one knows you better than yourself ! yes go see the school councillor ! and i believe you 100%. the school councillor will be your first step. see a doctor > how old are you ? it takes great courage for you to share dont let anyone stop you. your parent will come around. OCD is genetic. there is a lot of help available out there ! you are not alone and you are beautiful.